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class=\"elementor-heading-title elementor-size-default\">By <a href=\"https:\/\/kosovotwopointzero.com\/en\/author\/donikagashi\/\" target=\"_blank\">Donika Gashi<\/a> \u2014 5\/5\/2025<\/h2>\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-052b55e elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"052b55e\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-00a1ed6\" data-id=\"00a1ed6\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-07d97a0 elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"07d97a0\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I found out I was pregnant exactly one month after starting my master\u2019s studies in Aarhus, Denmark. It was not the news I was expecting, for many reasons. Due to Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS), I had been told for years by gynecologists that I would need treatment in order to get pregnant as it would otherwise be nearly impossible. PCOS is a hormonal disorder that often causes irregular menstrual cycles and is one of the most common causes of infertility in women. Additionally, I had just embarked on a journey that was expected to last two years, I hadn\u2019t imagined I would be facing such a major life change at that moment.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">However, I didn\u2019t want to give up either. I gathered all my strength to face this period alone. I had no other choice: I had to study, shop, attend lectures, walk as much as possible and fulfill every obligation \u2014 all without having my partner, family or friends nearby. I focused all my energy on figuring out how to manage the pregnancy without harming myself or the baby. In Aarhus, there were courses for pregnant women on childbirth, stress management and newborn care, but since I didn\u2019t speak Danish, I couldn\u2019t attend any of them.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I had my check-ups at the clinic where I was registered. I was informed that in the seventh month, as part of their medical protocol, I would need to meet with a social worker to talk more about pregnancy and mental health. I remember crying during that conversation because in my mind, motherhood was inherently tied to sacrifice \u2014 even self-sacrifice \u2014 and I didn\u2019t want that kind of parenting.\u00a0<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The social worker gently explained to me that there isn\u2019t just one way to be a parent and that, once the baby was born, I would gradually come to understand my own approach to parenting. During our conversation, she also told me about baby blues and postpartum depression. She said that in the first few weeks, whatever I might feel, I should accept it as normal \u2014 because it is. That conversation reassured me and helped me begin to process the fact that I was about to become a mother.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Very shortly after that conversation, I returned to Kosovo, where I gave birth.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">***<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The idea that I would now be responsible for caring for another human being terrified me from the moment I left the delivery room. In that instant, I remembered the social worker\u2019s words. This contrasted with the midwife at the private hospital, where I gave birth. While she was instructing me on how to breastfeed, with a smile and a certain pride, she said \u201cI don\u2019t care about the mother anymore, only about the baby.\u201d I felt undone in that moment \u2014 as if I had stopped existing. I was no longer myself, no longer important. And with those thoughts came guilt. I felt guilty for thinking that way. I felt selfish. A bad mother. The more I tried to suppress those thoughts, the stronger they came back.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I had never experienced that level of stress before. It peaked 72 hours after giving birth. I didn\u2019t recognize myself or my body \u2014 everything felt unfamiliar, as if I had lost touch with reality. I found myself mourning the life I had before. Then came the guilt for even having that thought and I cried uncontrollably. From what I had read, I understood that I was experiencing the baby blues. Baby blues<\/span><a href=\"https:\/\/pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov\/articles\/PMC9863514\/\" target=\"_blank\"> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">are typically associated with low mood and mild depressive symptoms<\/span><\/a><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">, which can appear in the first few days after childbirth and usually last between two to four weeks. If the symptoms persist beyond that,<\/span><a href=\"https:\/\/www.hopkinsmedicine.org\/health\/wellness-and-prevention\/postpartum-mood-disorders-what-new-moms-need-to-know#:~:text=If%20symptoms%20are%20severe%20or,birth%20are%20at%20higher%20risk.\" target=\"_blank\"> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">they may indicate postnatal depression<\/span><\/a><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">. According to studies, baby blues affect about 39% of women globally after giving birth,<\/span><a href=\"https:\/\/www.jognn.org\/article\/S0884-2175(20)30004-6\/abstract\" target=\"_blank\"> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">although this number varies significantly \u2014 from 13.7% to 76%<\/span><\/a><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> \u2014 depending on the culture and country of origin.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">To top it all off, in those early days, my milk ducts became blocked. The pain kept getting worse, and the only thing I kept hearing was, \u201cYou have to endure the pain, there\u2019s nothing like mother\u2019s milk.\u201d<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">This didn\u2019t help at all. <\/span><a href=\"https:\/\/kosovotwopointzero.com\/en\/breastfeeding-and-all-that-comes-with-it\/\" target=\"_blank\" target=\"_blank\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">On the contrary, it only added to the pressure<\/span><\/a><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">. This kind of pressure isn\u2019t just a personal feeling \u2014<\/span><a href=\"https:\/\/www.unicef.org.uk\/babyfriendly\/news-and-research\/baby-friendly-research\/maternal-health-research\/maternal-health-research-mental-health\/\" target=\"_blank\"> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">breastfeeding difficulties can take a serious toll on a mother\u2019s mental well-being<\/span><\/a><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">.<\/span><\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-1d9e5d8 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"1d9e5d8\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-da14ca3\" data-id=\"da14ca3\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-dfefc23 elementor-widget elementor-widget-image\" data-id=\"dfefc23\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"image.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<figure class=\"wp-caption\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<img width=\"2560\" height=\"1707\" src=\"https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/IMG_9193-scaled.jpg\" class=\"attachment-full size-full wp-image-117406\" alt=\"\" loading=\"lazy\" srcset=\"https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/IMG_9193-scaled.jpg 2560w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/IMG_9193-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/IMG_9193-1024x683.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/IMG_9193-768x512.jpg 768w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/IMG_9193-1536x1024.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/IMG_9193-2048x1365.jpg 2048w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/IMG_9193-326x217.jpg 326w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/IMG_9193-450x300.jpg 450w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 2560px) 100vw, 2560px\" \/>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<figcaption class=\"widget-image-caption wp-caption-text\">Photo: Mashal Baloch.<\/figcaption>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/figure>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-6e9cf58 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"6e9cf58\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-a8a6424\" data-id=\"a8a6424\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-213b43c elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"213b43c\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p>While searching online for help with breastfeeding, I came across the name of Rina Demiri Spahija, the director of Action for Mothers and Children (AMC) \u2014 an organization dedicated to the health of babies, mothers and children. I immediately decided to contact her about my problem. As soon as she answered the phone, I broke down in tears like never before. She understood me completely and advised me on what to do until I could see a doctor the following day.<\/p><p>The physical pain subsided after about a week, but what weighed on me most was the emotional toll. My mind and body were on high alert. I was constantly checking to see if the baby was breathing. My body would shake. I didn\u2019t want anyone else to hold the baby. I was terrified that something might happen to the baby \u2014 or to me. I would wake up in the middle of the night, gripped by anxiety, afraid that I had accidentally suffocated the baby. I cried a lot.<\/p><p>I thought about all the women in my circle who had gone through this journey before me. I realized that, without knowing it, I had been unfair to them. I remembered my best friend, Donika, when she first became a mother. At the time, I believed I was supporting her but now I understood that I hadn\u2019t truly grasped what she was going through.<\/p><p>It wasn\u2019t until I called Demiri Spahija, three days after giving birth, that I felt someone was finally validating my feelings \u2014 telling me that everything I was experiencing was normal. That was all I needed at that moment.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-24e06b7 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"24e06b7\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-ca0b6be\" data-id=\"ca0b6be\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-611dbb1 elementor-widget elementor-widget-image\" data-id=\"611dbb1\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"image.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<figure class=\"wp-caption\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<img width=\"2560\" height=\"1707\" src=\"https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/FLM03396-scaled.jpg\" class=\"attachment-full size-full wp-image-117387\" alt=\"\" loading=\"lazy\" srcset=\"https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/FLM03396-scaled.jpg 2560w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/FLM03396-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/FLM03396-1024x683.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/FLM03396-768x512.jpg 768w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/FLM03396-1536x1024.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/FLM03396-2048x1365.jpg 2048w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/FLM03396-326x217.jpg 326w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/FLM03396-450x300.jpg 450w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 2560px) 100vw, 2560px\" \/>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<figcaption class=\"widget-image-caption wp-caption-text\">Rina Demiri Spahija and Action for Mothers and Children work actively to support new mothers. <br>Photo: Ferdi Limani \/ K2.0<\/figcaption>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/figure>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-d6cc053 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"d6cc053\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-533b6b5\" data-id=\"533b6b5\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-d98de8b elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"d98de8b\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cDonika, due to the difficulties and anxiety of postpartum, I completely changed my profession,\u201d she told me that day over the phone. Now, 10 months later \u2014 in a conversation between me as a journalist and Demiri Spahija as the director of AMC \u2014 Demiri Spahija told me about the projects the organization is working on in collaboration with the Ministry of Health and UNICEF.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">One of these initiatives is the program \u201cHome Visits for Children 0-3 Years Old,\u201d implemented across all 38 municipalities of Kosovo. The program aims to improve maternal and child health by bringing essential services closer to families.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThe main focus is on home visits. When a public health worker comes to your home, it gives you a sense of security as a new mother \u2014 and often, baby blues can subside when mothers feel more supported,\u201d said Demiri Spahija.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">According to Demiri Spahija, in 2024, a total of 34,744 home visits were made to children aged 0-3, covering 76% of newborns. I was one of the women who got a visit. Six days after I gave birth, two midwives came to my apartment and explained everything in detail \u2014 from breastfeeding and holding the baby to proper hygiene and cleaning. I also asked if there was any service available to support me emotionally, specifically, something to help ease the symptoms of baby blues \u2014 the answer was that no such service was offered.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">In the seven regional public hospitals where births take place,<\/span><a href=\"https:\/\/kosovotwopointzero.com\/en\/depresioni-i-patrajtuar-i-paslindjes\/\" target=\"_blank\"> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">there is a lack of services dedicated to psychological support for pregnant women and new mothers<\/span><\/a><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">. Meanwhile, at the Gynecology Clinic at the University Clinical Center of Kosovo (UCCK), psychologist Brikena Krasniqi Hoti has been employed since the end of 2018. She is the only specialist providing psychological support to women during their stay at the clinic.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Since only one psychologist is employed at the Gynecology Clinic, the service lacks the capacity to support women after they are discharged and return home. In 2024, according to Krasniqi Hoti, around 530 women hospitalized at the clinic received psychological support. The number of women giving birth far exceeds the available resources. <\/span><a href=\"https:\/\/www.facebook.com\/shskuk.rksgov.net\/posts\/shskuk-mbi-17-mij%C3%AB-lindje-u-kryen-gjat%C3%AB-vitit-2024gjat%C3%AB-vitit-2024-n%C3%AB-t%C3%ABr%C3%AB-sh%C3%ABrb\/940815444882825\/\" target=\"_blank\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">According to UCCK<\/span><\/a><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">, in 2024, there were 7,901 births at UCCK and 9,594 hospital births in general hospitals.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Typically, women stay at the clinic for 24 to 48 hours after giving birth. According to Krasniqi Hoti, symptoms of postpartum depression often don\u2019t appear immediately and usually take at least four weeks to manifest.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">However, psychological support ends once women leave the gynecology clinic, regardless of whether they still need professional care. In such cases, they are advised to seek help from public health institutions, such as the Psychiatry Clinic, regional hospitals or community mental health centers where psychological services are available. Mental health services in Kosovo remain extremely limited. According to the Ministry of Health,<\/span><a href=\"https:\/\/kryeministri.rks-gov.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/12\/Koncept-Dokumenti-per-Shendet-Mendor.pdf\" target=\"_blank\"> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">only 281 nurses, 49 psychiatrists, nine psychologists, one social worker and seven psychosocial counselors are employed across all public health institutions in the country<\/span><\/a><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">This significant gap in the public sector is also highlighted by Krasniqi Hoti, who emphasizes that many women experiencing baby blues or postpartum depression are left without professional support.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cUnfortunately, such services are not accessible in most institutions, and in some cases, women are left to seek help in the private sector,\u201d she said.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">This not only increases the financial burden on new mothers but also leaves them without care during one of the most sensitive and vulnerable stages of their lives.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">In a culture where the mother figure is often idealized as someone who sacrifices everything \u2014 even to the point of self-sacrifice \u2014 the emotional struggles of motherhood are rarely acknowledged. Postpartum depression, extreme fatigue and feelings of insecurity are often ignored or minimized, as society continues to view motherhood as a role to be fulfilled with patience and without complaint.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Fortunately for me, these feelings didn\u2019t last more than two weeks. But many women aren\u2019t as lucky. For various reasons \u2014 whether physical, psychological or both \u2014 they may experience prolonged depression. To better understand postpartum depression, I spoke with three women who have gone through this experience: two from Kosovo and one from Albania.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The woman from Albania comes from a very similar cultural and social context. In Albania,<\/span><a href=\"https:\/\/www.togetherforlife.org.al\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/06\/Grate-dhe-shendeti-mendor-ne-Shqiperi.pdf\" target=\"_blank\"> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">women and girls are more likely than men to experience mental health issues<\/span><\/a><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> such as depression and anxiety, yet they often face significant barriers to accessing treatment, especially when it comes to specialized services.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Given the lack of women\u2019s stories on this topic,<\/span><a href=\"https:\/\/kosovotwopointzero.com\/en\/breastfeeding-and-all-that-comes-with-it\/\" target=\"_blank\" target=\"_blank\"> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">this article follows a format similar to a piece published by K2.0 in November 2024, where women shared their, often silent, experiences around breastfeeding<\/span><\/a><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">. Here, Aulon\u00eb, Besarta and Klaudia add their voices to a growing chorus of women who speak about a more nuanced experience of motherhood \u2014 one that goes beyond the idealized version often presented to us.<\/span><\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-1730614 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"1730614\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-0d837bf\" data-id=\"0d837bf\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-10bedc1 elementor-widget elementor-widget-image\" data-id=\"10bedc1\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"image.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<figure class=\"wp-caption\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<img width=\"2560\" height=\"1707\" src=\"https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/INTEXT-AULONA-scaled.jpg\" class=\"attachment-full size-full wp-image-117412\" alt=\"\" loading=\"lazy\" srcset=\"https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/INTEXT-AULONA-scaled.jpg 2560w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/INTEXT-AULONA-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/INTEXT-AULONA-1024x683.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/INTEXT-AULONA-768x512.jpg 768w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/INTEXT-AULONA-1536x1024.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/INTEXT-AULONA-2048x1366.jpg 2048w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/INTEXT-AULONA-326x217.jpg 326w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/INTEXT-AULONA-450x300.jpg 450w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 2560px) 100vw, 2560px\" \/>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<figcaption class=\"widget-image-caption wp-caption-text\"><\/figcaption>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/figure>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-4023f8c elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"4023f8c\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-3ea00c9\" data-id=\"3ea00c9\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-193fb6c elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"193fb6c\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p><b>Aulon\u00eb Mehmeti, 35, from Prishtina<\/b><\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-4967b5a elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"4967b5a\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-7ae2465\" data-id=\"7ae2465\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-a08dcff elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"a08dcff\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p><b>Photo: Ferdi Limani \/ K2.0.<\/b><\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-d43e39c elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"d43e39c\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-3dfde86\" data-id=\"3dfde86\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-dba5646 elementor-view-default elementor-widget elementor-widget-icon\" data-id=\"dba5646\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"icon.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-icon-wrapper\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-icon\">\n\t\t\t<i aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"fas fa-quote-left\"><\/i>\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-efa5d21 elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"efa5d21\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">On June 26, 2024, Arianit and I became parents for the first time. I was excited, prepared and happy. Before we left for the hospital, we took a few photos, got dressed and felt ready to experience what I believed would be the most important moment of my life.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">When I saw Gjergj for the first time, everything around me stopped. It was as if the world ceased to exist and only he remained. I had dreamed of that moment throughout my entire pregnancy \u2014 which, although not the easiest, passed without any major complications. I believe Arianit cried too; he even saw him before I did. Gjergj was so small and warm and I felt a deep tenderness for him, especially because he was crying so much.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">For the first two or three hours, I felt indescribable happiness. But then I was suddenly overcome by a sense of emptiness, an immediate emotional downturn. These feelings peaked on the third day, to the point that a nurse at the clinic told me I was experiencing symptoms of the baby blues. At the same time, I felt guilty for not feeling what everyone described as \u201cthe most beautiful thing in the world.\u201d For me, it didn\u2019t come naturally.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Breastfeeding was another challenge. They told me that Gjergj was latching well, but I felt severe pain and couldn\u2019t manage it properly. In the end, I had to supplement with formula.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">When we got home, everything changed. There was no manual, no protocol, no clear instructions. I knew in theory that babies wake up every two to three hours to feed but I hadn\u2019t imagined how difficult it would be in practice. It was exhausting. I couldn\u2019t tell if he was crying from hunger or stomach pain, I felt helpless. Stress overwhelmed me every time he cried because I didn\u2019t know what else to do. I tried everything, changed his diaper, gave him colic drops, used every remedy I could think of \u2014 but he still cried and I felt powerless. I had never experienced that kind of stress before. I\u2019ve worked under pressure for years, carrying great responsibilities, but this was the hardest \u201cjob\u201d of my life.<\/span><\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-53c0d0c elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"53c0d0c\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-59ec911\" data-id=\"59ec911\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-e3a86bd elementor-widget-divider--view-line elementor-widget elementor-widget-divider\" data-id=\"e3a86bd\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"divider.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-divider\">\n\t\t\t<span class=\"elementor-divider-separator\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/span>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-19af134 elementor-widget elementor-widget-heading\" data-id=\"19af134\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"heading.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<h2 class=\"elementor-heading-title elementor-size-default\">No one asked how I was. Everyone was focused on the baby, but I needed someone to ask about me.<\/h2>\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-49a6017 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"49a6017\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-db92e8f\" data-id=\"db92e8f\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-9e03441 elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"9e03441\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">In the first few days, Arianit was with us and people called to congratulate. But after about three weeks, it felt as if everyone assumed I had everything under control. In reality, that\u2019s when things started to get even harder. Arianit returned to work, while I was left feeling tired, sweaty, with hair I hadn\u2019t washed in days. I felt like I was constantly giving without receiving anything in return, until I was completely drained.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">No one asked how I was. Everyone was focused on the baby, but I needed someone to ask about me. In fact, now that I think about it, only my parents, my sister and my cousin asked, \u201chow are you?\u201d That meant so much to me as a new mother. One day, my cousin called and said, \u201cI\u2019m not asking you about Gjergj, because I know you\u2019re taking care of him, I\u2019m asking you \u2014 how are you?\u201d At that moment, I broke down in tears.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">When two months had passed since I gave birth, I realized that these feelings weren\u2019t just temporary. Whenever I talked to other mothers, their response was always the same: \u201cCome on, we\u2019ve all been through it.\u201d But the women who had become mothers before me didn\u2019t face the same pressure of having to earn an income. I thought about going to a psychologist, but time was the biggest issue. I had even postponed a routine Pap test for a month and a half. Finding the time to see a psychologist&#8230; it\u2019s just hard to manage anything as a new mother.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I think I went through a very depressive period. I\u2019m better now but I still have difficult phases \u2014 three or four dark days, followed by better ones. I often feel a deep anger, especially toward the system and the inequality within it. I know that no one but myself can truly help me and I know these feelings are temporary. But I also believe that society needs to understand that yes, becoming a mother is a beautiful experience \u2014 but it\u2019s just as important to talk about what happens after you become a mother.<\/span><\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-229a42b elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"229a42b\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-f117d98\" data-id=\"f117d98\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-f10c064 elementor-widget elementor-widget-image\" data-id=\"f10c064\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"image.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<figure class=\"wp-caption\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<img width=\"2560\" height=\"1707\" src=\"https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/INTEXT-BESARTA-scaled.jpg\" class=\"attachment-full size-full wp-image-117415\" alt=\"\" loading=\"lazy\" srcset=\"https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/INTEXT-BESARTA-scaled.jpg 2560w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/INTEXT-BESARTA-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/INTEXT-BESARTA-1024x683.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/INTEXT-BESARTA-768x512.jpg 768w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/INTEXT-BESARTA-1536x1024.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/INTEXT-BESARTA-2048x1365.jpg 2048w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/INTEXT-BESARTA-326x217.jpg 326w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/05\/INTEXT-BESARTA-450x300.jpg 450w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 2560px) 100vw, 2560px\" \/>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<figcaption class=\"widget-image-caption wp-caption-text\"><\/figcaption>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/figure>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-03b128f elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"03b128f\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-48e0978\" data-id=\"48e0978\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-29fc12c elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"29fc12c\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p><b>Besarta Breznica, 28, from Prishtina<\/b><\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-86f2cc4 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"86f2cc4\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-9563ab3\" data-id=\"9563ab3\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-4d22d0b elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"4d22d0b\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p><b>Photo: Ferdi Limani \/ K2.0.<\/b><\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-ddd5208 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"ddd5208\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-851a7d1\" data-id=\"851a7d1\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-5bf4ee0 elementor-view-default elementor-widget elementor-widget-icon\" data-id=\"5bf4ee0\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"icon.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-icon-wrapper\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-icon\">\n\t\t\t<i aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"fas fa-quote-left\"><\/i>\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-ecf1858 elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"ecf1858\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I had a very uneventful pregnancy, aside from the constant worry I felt about giving birth. I\u2019m someone who tends to get anxious about the unknown, childbirth was one of those unknowns. I had heard many stories from women \u2014 stories of trauma, pregnancy loss, severe complications and unbearable pain. For someone like me, who becomes anxious when facing uncertainty, hearing those stories made the idea of giving birth feel traumatic even before it happened.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I also entered pregnancy with a persistent fear of losing my baby. I had heard so many stories of women who had experienced loss that every change in my body made me think something was going wrong. As a result, I visited the gynecologist every two weeks out of panic. Because of this anxiety \u2014 and also because the baby was in a delicate position \u2014 I ended up having a cesarean section.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">On April 12, 2024, I gave birth to Gega, and just when I thought the anxiety and stress were behind me, I faced a new challenge. Due to the shape of my breasts, my son couldn\u2019t breastfeed. That was my first emotional breakdown. Surrounded by so many women who were breastfeeding, I deeply wanted to experience it too. Despite my constant efforts and hours spent pumping, the results didn\u2019t change. Everyone kept repeating the same phrase \u2014 one that started to feel like a ringing in my ears; <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201c<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">There\u2019s nothing like a mother\u2019s milk.\u201d That\u2019s when I started feeling sorry for myself. It seemed like my body was failing me at something that\u2019s supposed to be entirely natural. Even though the women around me could see how much I was struggling, not one of them suggested using formula. Instead, they all said, \u201cKeep trying until the end.\u201d That made me feel constantly inadequate.<\/span><\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-50ecbe0 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"50ecbe0\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-7817b37\" data-id=\"7817b37\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-7575dcb elementor-widget-divider--view-line elementor-widget elementor-widget-divider\" data-id=\"7575dcb\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"divider.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-divider\">\n\t\t\t<span class=\"elementor-divider-separator\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/span>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-424ed69 elementor-widget elementor-widget-heading\" data-id=\"424ed69\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"heading.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<h2 class=\"elementor-heading-title elementor-size-default\">I often felt misunderstood by the women in my family. There were moments when they told me, \u201cYou\u2019re overreacting, the baby is fine. If you had real health problems, you wouldn\u2019t be crying.\u201d<\/h2>\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-b37c5cb elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"b37c5cb\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-ee8381e\" data-id=\"ee8381e\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-c1854b3 elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"c1854b3\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">My emotional state was deteriorating as Gega cried nonstop. There were moments when I cried with him. That period was incredibly difficult for me \u2014 there were times when he cried so much that I didn\u2019t know how to soothe him. This went on for about four and a half to five months. And as anyone can imagine, hearing a baby cry constantly was not only exhausting but also deeply overwhelming. It made me feel even worse.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">There were moments when I cried with him because I didn\u2019t know what to do \u2014 I felt like I had no other options. I cried a lot and even now, I still cry from time to time. I often felt misunderstood by the women in my family. There were moments when they told me, \u201cYou\u2019re overreacting, the baby is fine. If you had real health problems, you wouldn\u2019t be crying.\u201d Those words made me feel even worse, because the issue wasn\u2019t with the baby. Of course, I was happy to have become a mother \u2014 my emotional state had nothing to do with the baby himself. The problem was that no one asked how I was doing anymore. During pregnancy and after birth, the entire focus shifted solely to the baby.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Even the care that women believe they\u2019re receiving during pregnancy is not truly for them, but for the fetus \u2014 and that same dynamic continues after birth. The care is always directed toward the other.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I read a lot about the symptoms I was experiencing but I was late to start psychotherapy because I lacked the courage to see a psychologist, even though I had done therapy before. After giving birth, it was difficult for me to take that step and talk to someone about how I was really feeling.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">In addition, I struggled to find the time to see a psychologist because there was no one to take care of the baby except me and my partner, and he was at work most of the time, which made it difficult to manage. I eventually started psychotherapy eight months after giving birth. I think it was too late. I believe it&#8217;s better to talk about difficult moments as they happen, because even if you don\u2019t talk about them, they build up inside you \u2014 and by the time you get to the psychologist, what is it that comforts you first?<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Now, a year after Gega\u2019s birth, I feel like I\u2019m doing better. Returning to work has helped as well \u2014 for me, it has felt like a return to normalcy, a return to something I\u2019ve done all my life.<\/span><\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-6044f17 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"6044f17\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-6ef19d3\" data-id=\"6ef19d3\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-a9824d4 elementor-widget elementor-widget-image\" data-id=\"a9824d4\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"image.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<figure class=\"wp-caption\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<img width=\"1920\" height=\"1280\" src=\"https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/04\/Baby-Blues_Klaudia-Tirane_002.jpg\" class=\"attachment-full size-full wp-image-117160\" alt=\"\" loading=\"lazy\" srcset=\"https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/04\/Baby-Blues_Klaudia-Tirane_002.jpg 1920w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/04\/Baby-Blues_Klaudia-Tirane_002-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/04\/Baby-Blues_Klaudia-Tirane_002-1024x683.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/04\/Baby-Blues_Klaudia-Tirane_002-768x512.jpg 768w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/04\/Baby-Blues_Klaudia-Tirane_002-1536x1024.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/04\/Baby-Blues_Klaudia-Tirane_002-326x217.jpg 326w, https:\/\/archive.kosovotwopointzero.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/04\/Baby-Blues_Klaudia-Tirane_002-450x300.jpg 450w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1920px) 100vw, 1920px\" \/>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<figcaption class=\"widget-image-caption wp-caption-text\"><\/figcaption>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/figure>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-3763322 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"3763322\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-3a7e510\" data-id=\"3a7e510\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-bf1d956 elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"bf1d956\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p><b>Klaudia Kastrati, 29, from Tirana<\/b><\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-78dd621 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"78dd621\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-a7521c2\" data-id=\"a7521c2\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-6e470f6 elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"6e470f6\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p><b>Photo: Atdhe Mulla \/ K2.0.<\/b><\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-7c1c868 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"7c1c868\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-b5b60b3\" data-id=\"b5b60b3\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-9fa176a elementor-view-default elementor-widget elementor-widget-icon\" data-id=\"9fa176a\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"icon.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-icon-wrapper\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-icon\">\n\t\t\t<i aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"fas fa-quote-left\"><\/i>\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-c12db9d elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"c12db9d\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">It was 2020 \u2014 a time of a pandemic and isolation \u2014 when I found out I was pregnant for the second time. Unlike my first pregnancy, this time I felt a tightness in my chest the moment I saw the two lines on the test. I had become a mother only a year earlier and was fully immersed in that experience, enjoying every detail of it. My bond with my eldest son was strong and the thought of becoming a mother again left me in shock. How would I take care of two babies at the same time? Would I be able to give them both the love and attention they deserved?<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">My emotional state worsened even more when I shared the news with others. They told me, \u201cyou\u2019ve ruined your life with this second pregnancy. You won\u2019t be able to function as a human being anymore \u2014 only as a mother doing her duty.\u201d Unfortunately, these comments came from people within the inner circle we usually consider \u201csacred.\u201d I know people often speak without thinking, but they rarely consider the emotional impact their words can have \u2014 especially when you&#8217;re already going through something so vulnerable.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The birth of my second son was another traumatic experience. He was born without signs of life, and I nearly lost my own during childbirth. Just a few hours later, he was transferred to a state hospital, where he spent two weeks in intensive care. During that entire time, I didn\u2019t rest for a moment. I didn\u2019t have time to feel afraid or even to cry. It was as if I had turned into a robot. I would care for my older son at home, then rush to the hospital to be with my newborn. I wasn\u2019t truly living \u2014 I was merely existing, serving my two children.<\/span><\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-a0bed19 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"a0bed19\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-2b27a9d\" data-id=\"2b27a9d\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-5ddb0fa elementor-widget-divider--view-line elementor-widget elementor-widget-divider\" data-id=\"5ddb0fa\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"divider.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-divider\">\n\t\t\t<span class=\"elementor-divider-separator\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/span>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-f050150 elementor-widget elementor-widget-heading\" data-id=\"f050150\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"heading.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<h2 class=\"elementor-heading-title elementor-size-default\">Negative thoughts took over me. I was overwhelmed by a deep sense of inadequacy.<\/h2>\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-9065314 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"9065314\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-f712594\" data-id=\"f712594\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-08748ed elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"08748ed\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Everything I had experienced came crashing down the moment I brought my little boy home. It felt like an unexpected wave suddenly hit me. All at once, everything went dark. Reality seemed distant, blurry. I couldn\u2019t feel joy in what was supposed to be the happiest moment of my life. I couldn\u2019t look at my children and say, \u201cWe did it, we\u2019re together.\u201d If I had to describe that feeling, it would be darkness \u2014 a complete disconnection from the reality I was living.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Negative thoughts took over me. I was overwhelmed by a deep sense of inadequacy. I carried out all the duties of a mother mechanically \u2014 feeding, changing diapers, taking care of both children \u2014 but without feeling anything. My relationship with my eldest son also began to suffer. There were no more cuddles, no more kisses. He felt my distance. Sometimes, he wouldn\u2019t come near me at all.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">One night, he refused even the slightest touch. He wouldn\u2019t let me stroke his head. My heart broke. I cried, begging my child to let me hold him. That\u2019s when I realized I had reached a breaking point \u2014 something had to change. I didn\u2019t sleep that night. I thought long and hard about how I could help myself, how I could get out of this situation.<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">For me, recovery was a battle \u2014 an internal process, a personal struggle. I didn\u2019t seek professional help, but each day, with small steps, I tried to find myself again. I believe that as long as we\u2019re able to help ourselves, no one else can do it for us.<\/span><\/p><p>\u00a0<\/p><p><b>Feature Image:<\/b><b> <\/b><b>Mashal Baloch \/ K2.0<\/b><\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-7de10da elementor-section-full_width elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"7de10da\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-4c8e945\" data-id=\"4c8e945\" data-element_type=\"column\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap 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elementor-element elementor-element-f4643db elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"f4643db\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-50 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-234af88\" data-id=\"234af88\" data-element_type=\"column\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-a21876e elementor-widget elementor-widget-global elementor-global-104647 elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"a21876e\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p><strong><em>D\u00ebshironi t\u00eb mb\u00ebshtetni gazetarin\u00eb ton\u00eb?<\/em><\/strong><\/p><p>N\u00eb Kosovo 2.0, p\u00ebrpiqemi t\u00eb jemi shtyll\u00eb e gazetaris\u00eb s\u00eb pavarur e me cil\u00ebsi t\u00eb lart\u00eb, n\u00eb nj\u00eb epok\u00eb ku \u00ebsht\u00eb gjithnj\u00eb e m\u00eb sfiduese t\u2019i mbash k\u00ebto standarde dhe ta ndjek\u00ebsh t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00ebn dhe llogaridh\u00ebnien pa u frik\u00ebsuar. P\u00ebr ta siguruar pavar\u00ebsin\u00eb ton\u00eb t\u00eb vazhdueshme, po prezantojm\u00eb HIVE, modelin ton\u00eb t\u00eb ri t\u00eb an\u00ebtar\u00ebsimit, i cili u ofron atyre q\u00eb e vler\u00ebsojn\u00eb gazetarin\u00eb ton\u00eb, mund\u00ebsin\u00eb t\u00eb kontribuojn\u00eb e b\u00ebhen pjes\u00eb e misionit ton\u00eb.<\/p><p><em>An\u00ebtar\u00ebsohuni n\u00eb \u201cHIVE\u201d ose konsideroni nj\u00eb donacion.&nbsp;<\/em><\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-50 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-1711f32\" data-id=\"1711f32\" data-element_type=\"column\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-1d71955 elementor-align-justify elementor-widget elementor-widget-button\" data-id=\"1d71955\" 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